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THE NEARNESS OF GRACE A PERSONAL SCIENCE OF SPIRITUAL TRANSFORMATION Arnold J. Mandell Table of Contents Acknowledgements ………………………………………………………… 3 Chapter 1: In Search of the Miraculous .…………………………………. 4 Chapter 2: Doesn’t Everybody ……………………………………………. 22 Chapter 3: Transmogrifications Of Energies ……………………………. 42 Chapter 4: Sensual In-Between Entropies ………………………………. 64 Chapter 5: Some Entheogenic Entropies …………..……………………. 87 Chapter 6: Pentecostal Phase Transitions ………………………………. 122 Chapter 7: Amphetamine Roll-Up And Splitting .………….……………. 144 Chapter 8: Faith And Rationality …………………………………………. 168 Appendix: An Intuitive Guide to the Ideas and Methods of Dynamical Systems for the Life Sciences …………… 186 2 ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS Appreciation is expressed to the Fetzer Institute for their support of this work. Particular thanks are due their imaginative Vice President, Dr. Paul Gailey, who shared my vision and hope that these somewhat disparate themes could be blended into a meaningful whole. Time and the reading by others will tell whether this idea was realized. The Fetzer Foundation and Dr. Gailey have facilitated exploration into blends of science and spirituality, particularly in the context of personal meaning. They also have a history of supporting serious work in this era’s most powerful and rigorous exercise in holism as represented by the mathematical and applied mathematical fields of modern dynamical systems theory. Fetzer’s very special environment and years of dedication have encouraged the variety of personal meanings within science to emerge and be recognized as legitimate and important parts of the research enterprise. It would be difficult to imagine a more propitious context for this effort. The book is dedicated to my daughter Buna, and to my intellectual and creative companion, Dr. Karen Selz, whose deep and lovely mind wrote much more of this book than is formally acknowledged. 3 CHAPTER 1: IN SEARCH OF THE MIRACULOUS More than a half-century of naïve persistence and driven search for unity in the biophysics of mind and personal spirituality as the basis for healing transformation has led me into many laboratories. The motivation may have been genetic. My father said that we were descended from several generations of Jewish mystics, none of them able to attain the salaried status of rabbi or cantor. These ecstatic men lived lives of peripatetic eccentricity, stirring congregations with provocative insights and uncomfortably personal inquiry. But only for a little while. Soon they were asked to leave the synagogue and often their Eastern European Jewish townships called shtetels as well. My father, in the first generation of our family without rabbis in over a Century, was a businessman-musician, who in the early mornings studied Talmudic commentaries. He taught me about why it was that most interpretations of the book by the rational, physician, lawyer, philosopher, Moses Maimonides, called Guide for the Perplexed, were in error in their assumption that man cannot understand God’s nature with his mind. He took issue with the opinion that the union of a person’s intellect and Spirit with Him was not possible as long as a person was living. Ibn Tibbon, Maimonides’ best-known early translator and interpreter, relegated the cognitive, analytical, physical and alchemical transformational sciences to the earthly, not spiritual realm. My father disagreed. He espoused the work of the 13 th 4 Century proponent of a school of Jewish ecstatic mysticism, Abraham Abulafia, whose interpretation of the Guide and his own Commentary on the Secrets taught that the human mind, if transformed into a “state of active intellect,” could become one with Spirit, realizing the Kingdom of God in rational mystical experience in a state of excitement with new ideas. The new consciousness achieves deep knowledge of both the “upper” and “lower” realms of what he called “reality” both spontaneously and directly. He said that without personal transformation, this knowing is not possible. Abulafia’s lesson was that the mundane intellect of man has the potential for transformation into another kind of mind in a spiritualization of thought. This occurs via developmental stages that begin with intellect and imagination and culminate in what he called prophetic emanations. The exercises leading to this transformation are to be strongly willed and practiced with regularity. This work results in ascension to an ecstatic state accompanied by great intuitive powers, which Abulafia called “prophesy.” Ibn Adret, the Chief Rabbi of Spain at the end of the Thirteenth Century, banished Abulafia from the Country, a Century before the Spanish Inquisition ousted all the Jews. Following what my father said was required in the practice of Kabbalah, a 13 th Century tradition of esoteric and mystical interpretations of the Scriptures, I learned the secret meanings of each of the twenty-two letter Hebrew alphabet. Much like the Platonic view of mathematics, that it existed before the physical universe, these symbolic equivalences were believed to be eternal in the transcendental realm. One of the rare written accounts of this oral tradition is in the thirteenth-century Hebrew Book of Splendor called the Zohar which describes the Hebrew alphabet as the heavenly code of the cosmos. I learned that the Tegragrammaton’s repeated letter Hei, being fifth in the Hebrew alphabet, represents the number five. In the Kabbalistic tradition, Hei implicates the functional five-partition of the human inner self or soul. The five parts are: nefesh, instinctual drives; ruach, mood, affect and emotions; neshamah, cognitive activities of the mind; chayah, efforts to understand and attain transcendence; yechidah, experiencing the world as a cosmic unity. Later in life as 5 a psychoanalytical neuroscientist with a computational bent, the partitions divided thoughtful, forewarning forebrain from automatic and stereotyped hind brain, the signal analyzing thalamocortical system from the emotional and impulsive brain stem-limbic, the symbolically logical left from intuitively geometric right hemispheres. We divide the neurotransmitter moods of dopamine aggression from the transcendentally erotic serotonin and the organized dynamical states of periodicity and quasi(multi)periodicity from the real world complexity of chaos. I learned that it is comforting to divide an unknown whole into two or more unknowable parts. The Jewish guru and Hebraic tutor of my childhood, Rabbi Isadore Kliegfeld, smiled when I told him about my sudden loss of panic during nighttime Hebrew letter meditations. He said that I had had received personal evidence that these powerful symbols could call forth the transformational powers of God. He said that I had been given a blessing, in Yiddish, a nachas. Maybe panic is not that far from the transcendence of an activated mind. In my tenth summer, behind closed door in a hot back bedroom, first by accidental touch and then by more systematic chaffing, I evoked a pleasurably urgent and yawning feeling that began in the lower part of my abdomen and back. It filled me with thought emptying fullness that a sudden involuntary burst of pelvic contractions found resolution in an hour or two of an unexplainable sadness. I had been struggling to understand my father’s well warn copy of William James’s Varieties of Religious Experience and I wondered if I had been visited by one of the altered states he described. Was this what he meant by a transformative experience? A few months later, a late night meditation produced physical evidence, a thick, sticky, salty sweet stuff that by morning stuck my sheets together. Later that year, in my father’s library, I found a translation of the 1500 BCE Egyptian Book of the Dead. It contained a creation myth of two Gods in which “rubbing with my fist, my heart came into my mouth and I spat forth Shu and Tefnut.” Psalm 23, read rather regularly in Sunday school, began to make me wonder about the meanings of“…rod and staff that comforts…” and what was meant by “…my cup runneth over.” Among the ten regions of the Zohar, connecting the inner world of 6 man to the upper world, is the tree of ten sefirot in which Yesod , the phallus, occupies a central place. Now we’re allowed to know that G-spot stimulation of the para-urethral glands in the female can result in spurt as well as a cup that runneth over. Other occasions of the temporal disappearance of the self-conscious I occurred while doing the theorem and proof work of high school geometry. Axioms and the rule bound processes of deduction created difficult journeys from that which was given to what should be found. Rocking back and forth in a desk chair for hours, chewing on fingernails, cuticles and pencil ends, time disappeared in a none self aware state of work-a-day well-being. Sri Aurobindo’s Bhagadvad Gita described this state as one of the rewards of karma yoga. Abulafia’s Kabalistic School emphasized the importance of hitbodedut, detachment and seclusion in concentrated thought, as a technique for the attainment of spiritual “intensification.” Stacks of lined yellow paper piled up full of blind alleys as I lived in humbling dumbness. One of my teachers of mathematics described it as the working mathematician’s dark night of the soul. A breakthrough to a route from premises to proof brought an expansive rush. Engagement in a struggle to fuse two differing contextual worlds may be transporting. Geometric visions can be used to do imageless algebra in a brain state that feels like intuition. The brain does something like this: Let the number of a sequence of unit squares, each side of measuring 0 to 1, be the denominator of a series of fractions, say fifths. Now put five of these boxes in a row. Then the sequence of all possible fifths, 0/5,1/5, 2/5,..5/5, is inscribed by cutting the vertical sides of the five sequential squares with a diagonal from the lower left of the first one to the upper right corner of the last. This line cuts each sequential square’s front boundary with vertical lengths, 0.0, 0.2, 0.4…1.0 in a series of decimal fractions equivalent to the sequence of all possible fifths, the proper fractions 1/5, 2/5…5/5. It was Abulafia’s kabalistic belief that symbolic, (algebraic), operations in (geometric) spaces can unify the “upper” and “lower” worlds in the eternal tensions between the body and soul, the inner world and the cosmos, the conflict making the global system both sensitive and stable. The geometric-topological approach to 7 modern dynamical system’s theory describes a convolution of the expansive motions (as in the upper world) and contractive motions (as in the lower world) embedded naturally in the curved time and space geometries of what are called hyperbolic spaces. Each point in this space can be visualized as a little saddle in which orbital flows from pommel and back flow down to the seat, bringing points together in contracting motion, and flows away from seat down along the sides are expanding the distance between nearby points.. In the middle of the saddle, simultaneously expansive and contracting orbits demonstrate hyperbolic stability composed of intersecting destabilizing and stabilizing influences. Loss of this countervailing hyperbolic dynamical stability results in global system transformations called bifurcations and/or phase transitions. Transformation as a loss of stability is a theme of a recent poetic translation of portions of the Zohar called Dreams of Being Eaten Alive by David Rosenberg. He writes that at some time in the difficult journey through the oftenincomprehensible Zohar, in order to gain entrance to the kabalistic cosmos, there arose what he called “heartbreak.” “No matter how much intellectual study is involved, the reader cannot understand the text unless he or she has offered his heart to be broken on the altar of poetry…and prayer.” Surrender may be the source of the strange, uplifting feeling of worked through dumbness. My mother, once a conservatory teaching assistant in piano, sat beside me while I practiced almost daily, weekends included, from the age of two until the midteens. Her quiet analytic counter-point sounded mathematical, “You can hear that that this harmonic progression goes through intervals of fourths of dominant seventh chords.” I felt the persistent lack of harmonic resolution as growing tension in my groin. “If you transform each of the 12 notes in a chromatic scale, multiplying it by five (in what mathematicians call) mod 12 (the numbering system goes from one to twelve, not ten, before it repeats), one can recover the circle of fourths, the commonest harmonic chord progression in music.” Though her computational talk supported rational thought, in my adolescent heat, the addition of Charley Parker’s flatted fifth and ninth to the dominant seventh chord led suddenly somewhere else and she knew it. Hearing my arrangement of a Beethoven piano piece become a 8 mix of classical and modern jazz themes that I called “How High the Moonlight Sonata,” she laughed lasciviously as though tickled by this sensual violation of musical canon. A boogie-woogie Bach two and three-part invention brought more excited disapproval. Mysterious are the conditions of attentive (preoccupied) and none attentive, (fugued out) disappearing time. I found a musical way for it to happen when improvising: continue to shuffle a small set of notes that stay within the melodic field of the tonal center of an unchanging tonic chord. In contrast, most melodies and their chords leave the tonal center to which they return in harmonic and melodic progression. We can call these conventional tonal centers unstable fixed points. They are attractive repellers of melodic and harmonic expectation. It has been mathematically proven that these hyperbolic systems are globally stable. In contrast, a melody that remains stuck in the tonic chord, a purely contracting stable fixed point, is technically a chant. Paradoxically, it can be shown that this kind of fixed point is globally unstable. Rigid things can more easily fracture. The rich, altered states of consciousness that emerge while hearing the beat of Tibetan monks meditating, the Sufi chant-dances of Rumi and the John Coltrane and McCoy Tyner’s endless, single chord, tenor/piano dialogues exemplify the bifurcation to hallucinatory new stuff arising spontaneously from the experience of unchanging repetition. Constant repetition of the conditioned (expected) stimulus drove Pavlov’s dogs, especially those with “nervous temperaments,” into frozen, catatonic states. Abulafia’s 1280 book on ecstatic techniques, Hayyei Ha’Olam HaBa, recommended the recitative rearranging of a finite set of Hebrew letters, frontward and backward, many times, using prayer melodies, until “…the heart will suddenly become aware of the intellectual, divine and prophetic…” and hitbodedut will rest upon him. The instructions were “…combine letters (and associated musical notes)… reversing and rolling them around rapidly until one’s heart begins to feel warm.” It was in my freshman year at Stanford University when I met Michael Murphy, later to co-found Esalon, the California center for mystical pursuits and naked mud bathing. He is the author of Golf in the Magic Kingdom and with George 9 Leonard, Integral Transformative Practice. I watched him go through a dramatic personal transformation after participating in Professor of Asian Studies, Frederick Spiegelberg’s seminar (with meditation lab) about Sri Arubindo’s interpretation of the Hindu Bible, the Bhagavad-Gita. Shortly after the semester, he climbed into an abandoned tower on campus to continue his meditation. He remained there for several months, refusing to come down even after the Stanford Student Health Service sent a medical school psychiatrist to investigate. I was more than curious about how it was that this hard drinking, and like his brother Dennis, all night poker playing, Phi Gamma Delta party boy, had suddenly become a transcendent ascetic. My girl friend Mary and I signed up for Spiegelberg’s seminar in Indian Religions. We were made breathless by his accounts of administering a Rorschach Test to the Indian Saint, Swami Sivananda. He recounted discussions about God with the artists Paul Klee and Max Ernst and the philosophers Rudolph Otto, Paul Tillich, Martin Heidegger and Martin Buber. As homework, Mary and I practiced breathing awareness mediation twice a day. During the year, Spiegelberg sponsored a visit by the aging but still very lively Aldous Huxley to our seminar. He also brought us Alan Watts and several lecturers from the Jung Institute of San Francisco. Shortly after hearing Huxley talk about the spiritual power of a particular exercise of will and loving thoughts, Mary and I began the daily practice of karessa, some call it coitus reservatus. I was eighteen and she was nineteen. We found that withholding an orgasm in order to achieve nirvanic extinction of all desires and passions was difficult. We spent hours in karessa meditation, trying to experience the detachment described in the Bhagadvad Gita. This biblical explication of karma yoga told how it was that the warrior, Ardjuna, instructed by God Krishna in the form of his charioteer, was able to detach sufficiently to do his assigned job of killing without emotional involvement. Ken Wilbur, a modern, self proclaimed pandit, an academically oriented articulator and intellectual justifier of the dharma, the spiritual work of Hindu and Buddhist practice, contrasts the nirvana (literally “end”) composed of emptiness in time and space, dharma Kaya in which “…no objects are arising…” with the lesson of the Bhagavad-Gita. Its message involved realizing 10 ones spiritual unfolding within the stream of real time and space, finding emptiness in the world of form and inaction in the world of action. We worked at karessa so ardently that there was barely enough time left to do our assignments in biology and chemistry. In a darkened room, Mary and I lay legs locked, lying on our sides, moving slowly and rhythmically, humming Om and waiting for our ascension. We worked at making the journey through Sri Aurobindo’s soul planes of higher mind, illumined mind, infinitive mind, over mind and finally, the supermind of infinitely empty no mind. This somewhat unusual way to study for a three credit course in Asian Studies at Stanford grew naturally out of the central message of Spiegelberg’s seminar that whereas “…deriving a universal theology is not possible, having the universal experience is required for an understanding of any of the world’s theologies.” The controversial Bishop of the Episcopal Diocese of Newark who teaches that Christian forms continue to evolve, John Shelby Spong, D.D. says, “…every biblical word represents an attempt on the part of our ancestors in faith to make sense out of a God experience in their time and place. The experience …is eternal and real. The explanations will never be eternal and real. They will last only as long as the (cultural) mind-set that created them.” Mary got an A+ grade, topping Spiegelberg’s class with a final examination essay, which, in literary detail, described her episodes of samadhi, yoga’s state of unity with the creator. Her 25 page blue book contained accounts of walking fugues, spontaneously strong genital sensations, changes in tastes and smells, sudden feelings of rising spinal-abdominal kundalini, middle of the night dreams of oceanic orgasmic fusion with God. She failed to mention that she was describing her usual pre-menstrual state. During these college years, I learned about two Isaac Newtons The first I met at elementary physics lectures; the unit was about how things worked called mechanics. Logically and computationally consistent but taken on faith, I learned about an invisible field force between masses called gravity that decayed in strength like the inverse of the square of their distances apart and operated in my intuitive world like an electromagnetic spirit. Less occult were the expressions of gravitational fields as contact forces, computed for the tension in the string of a 11 pendulum or the pressure of the floor on a weight resting upon it. Faith in this realm came from exercises in physical object visualization followed by manipulation of self-consistent algebraic symbols. I learned about experiments attesting to the “reality” of these ghostly fields (that now include electric, magnetic and strong and weak nuclear forces), and yet it was the physicists that already believed them who designed the machines to demonstrate them. It was Gregory Bateson, Margaret Mead’s houseboy, lover, photographer and social anthropologist who said, “Newton didn’t discover gravity, he invented it.” One college summer I found a second Isaac Newton, perhaps not so estranged from the first. He appeared in the form of a marble bust in the chapel of Trinity College at Cambridge University, holding the prism he had used to explore the polychromatic properties of light like a talisman. In his essay called Newton, the Man, the early 20 th Century Cambridge Don and economic theorist, John Maynard Keynes, said that the Newton of the chapel followed “…certain mystic clues which God had laid about the world to allow a sort of philosopher’s treasure hunt to the esoteric brotherhood.” Michael White’s biography, called Newton the Last Sorcerer, described his work as an attempt to integrate the magic of the Old World with the science of the New Age. Newton’s awe over what he saw as the wonders of the universe maintained him in private theological study throughout his life. Arthur Waite’s Alchemists Through the Ages describes how Newton’s alchemical orientation toward the earth’s fundamental substances such as fire, air, wind and water, their powers and potential for transformation, was joined imperceptibly with his metaphysics and physics. In his hands, experimental observations involving gravitation, celestial mechanics and optics, though motivated by esoteric alchemical theories, generated experimentally accessible phenomena and testable ideas. The French mathematician, Jacque Hadamard, in his The Psychology of Invention in the Mathematical Field, said that mystical preoccupations were never far from the minds of most of the English and European mathematicians and physicists of the 18 th and 19 th Centuries. This orientation served as an impetus for them to pay attention to the almost imperceptible whispers of their emergent thoughts. E.T. Bell, the historian of mathematics and mathematicians said even 12 Descartes, the essential Enlightenment rationalist, was responsive to his “…call of the Spirit…” Napier the inventor of logarithms wrote an exegetical commentary on the Book of Revelations. The mathematician and physicist, Pascal, believing that contact with a religious relic had cured his terminally ill sister, wrote long tracks about whether or not the Devil could work miracles. The great mathematician, Cauchy, was known for his persistent efforts to convert fellow mathematicians to Roman Catholicism. Gauss, who was not particularly religious, said that a difficult to prove theorem did not result from hard work but “…the grace of God.” In letters between Liebniz, who along with Newton was the inventor of calculus, and a member of the family of great mathematicians, John Bernoulli, used scriptural quotations and biblical diagrams as part of their theoretical correspondence. Perhaps the greatest mathematician of the 18 th Century (or ever), Euler, in his Letters to a German Princess, discussed the functional characteristics of spirits and the connections between body and soul. Bell said Euler “…never discarded a particle of his Calvinist faith.” It was to the working out of a law of mechanics called “the principle of least action” that Ernst Mach attributed the beginning of the separation of physical mechanics from formal theology. The flavor of this change is captured in his 1893 The Science of Mechanics that stimulated Bridgeman’s 1936 more formal philosophical analyses of physical theory, from a position that came to be called operationalism: the restriction of physical concepts to those definable in terms of the experimental operations required to demonstrate or prove them. Mach said that these events marked the move of formal metaphysical thinking about mechanics and the physical sciences more generally into the personal and private realm of belief and meaning. Maupertuis, an eccentric friend of Frederick the Great and president of the Berlin Academy, proposed the principle of least action as evidence of the infinite wisdom of the Creator. As an early psychopharmacologist, Maupertuis recommended the use of opium to facilitate creative thought and was famously parodied for doing so by Voltaire in his 1752 story in which he is portrayed as the naïvely foolish Dr. Akakia. The physical law of least action belongs to a set of ideas 13 that are called variational analysis. They involve the natural (or miraculous) selection of maxima or minima in quantifiable physical processes. Of all possible two-dimensional shapes with the same perimeter, the circle contains the greatest area; in three dimensions, it’s the sphere. In his Principia, Newton reports his work determining the optimal shape of round solids, with circles of revolution having the same effective cross section, in order to minimize frictional resistance to gravity in a medium. The principle of least action says that imparting energy; say by a kick, to a physical body on a rigid two-dimensional surface like the earth, results in it taking the shortest route possible from its initial to final position. The related 1650 Fermat’s “principle of least time” is about light. As Feynman explains in his Lectures in Physics, “…out of all possible paths that light might take from one point another, light takes the path that requires the shortest time.” Feynman, using elementary relations from high school geometry, proved that the least time principle could lead directly to Snell’s law of the refraction of light at the interface of two different conducting media such as air and water. His analogy was the optimal choice of the path to take in order to rescue a pretty girl drowning in the ocean. Whereas the shortest distance to the girl leads directly into the water, faster running along the beach to the point that minimizes the distance required for the intrinsically slower rate of swimming increases the distance traveled but reduces the time required to reach her. Euler attributed the optimization principle to an expression of the meaning and purpose of a loving God. Infused with this spirit, he developed mathematical methods describing smooth variations in position of an object in motion, the Euler differential equation, in which differential coefficients are varied to prove the principle of least action for mechanical motion. He gave the law Maupertuis’s name. Mach quoted Euler’s conclusion, “As the construction of the universe is the most perfect possible, being the handiwork of an all-wise Maker, nothing can be met with in the world in which some maximal or minimal property is not displayed.” Such faith based mathematical formalisms were rejected by Joseph Lagrange, an early 19 th Century mathematician, who, among many other things, proved that every natural 14 number could be expressed as the sum of at most four squared numbers. It was his strongly held opinion that metaphysical speculation was both foreign and inimical to the conduct of mathematics and science. His work in the calculus of variations led to the development of a system of algebraic manipulations seeking the value of constants, Lagrange multipliers, in place of solving Euler’s differential equations. It makes it possible to immediately write down a computable expression for the maximum of a mathematical equation. The technique is now routinely taught to high school students and with no mention of the role of belief in the perfection of God in its discovery. * * * I was a fortunate freshman medical student. After a visit to his office and a stimulating discussion about some of the correspondences between the ideas of psychoanalysis and neurobiology, Robert Heath, Tulane Medical School’s Gary Cooper-like charismatic chairman of the psychiatry department, offered me a place in his animal and human neurophysiological laboratory. Between classes, evenings and weekends, I used a Horsely-Clarke apparatus, one of the world’s first stereotaxic devices. It allowed the precise placement of electrodes into functionally specific regions of a cat’s brain. The electrodes were cemented to the skull in place and their wires connected to a device by which the frequency, amplitude and wave shape of the electrical stimulation could be oscilloscopically monitored and electronically controlled as the conscious cat walked around the room. I spent hours observing and recording changes in spontaneous behavior that followed activation of various nuclei in the cat’s brain with small electrical currents. Deep in the part of brain that resides in the upper neck, called the lower brain stem, the region thought to regulate functions such as breathing, heart rate, blood pressure, gastrointestinal motility and global states of consciousness such as wakefulness and sleep, I found stimulus sites that, after 15 seconds of electrical activation, led to several minutes of hissing and objectless rage. One cat attacked an empty chair. These regions when activated also inhibited spinal reflexes such as 15 the knee jerk of the standard neurological examination. Such phenomena were already well known in the late 1930’s in what W.R. Hess and later John Flynn, following electrical stimulation of cats in the lateral hypothalamus, called “hypothalamic rage.” In the late 1940’s and 1950’s, work by National Institutes of Mental Health’s Paul MacLean attributed it to the actions of parts of the emotional “limbic” brain, particularly the fear-rage-attack coloring of experience by the temporal lobe’s amygdaloid nucleus. Modern imaging studies in man have shown that this source of emotional coloring is activated by new information, even before the more rational parts of the neocortical brain processes it. How we feel about something new arises before what we think about it. These survival-oriented states of fight or flight are known to be biologically universal and demonstrable in even single cell organisms. A greater contribution to my brain metaphysics followed observations that after several seconds of stimulation of other brain stem sites, the cats became alert but quiet, staring into space for several minutes. Then, they circled slowly and curled up on the ground. This was followed by several minutes of grooming and loud purring. Difficult to handle cats became transiently tame, some coming close for petting. I found that these same sites also increased the amplitude and reduced the threshold for the cat’s knee jerk reflex. Responsiveness increased with calmness. Particularly interesting was the finding that electrical induction of this purring state could immediately stop on-going stimulation-induced episodes of hissing rage. I referred to these experiments with my friends as my neurophysiological studies of Old Testament vengeance and New Testament forgiveness. It seemed that the hissing rage would produce eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth hypertension, the talon principle of the Old Testament and Koran. New Testament forgiveness would yield low blood pressure health and Jesus was a healer. It was about this time in the early 1950’s that Northwestern University social psychologist, Jim Olds, found that rats could be trained to push levers to obtain current delivery via electrodes in various parts of their brains. Shortly after, Joseph Brady, then of the Walter Reed Army Institute of Research, showed that squirrel monkeys would do the same. With depth electrodes attached to wires running to a 16 miniaturized electronics box strapped to their belts, some of Robert Heath’s schizophrenic patients spent hours pressing their switches with beatifically expectant smiles. It was after several months of cat experiments that Professor Heath suggested that we spend some time interviewing a hospitalized, chronically ill female patient, Donna, before and during the time she was being studied with recording and stimulating depth electrodes in the human neurophysiology laboratory. Donna, bony thin in a lose fitting green hospital gown and sandals, had dark red toenails, blonde hair and eyes shadowed darkly. In her mid-thirties, she had never married and, when she could, worked as a beautician. She told us that since her menarche at 13, she increasingly often had episodes of spontaneous ecstatic rushes along with sudden visions of strong white light. She attributed these experiences to visitations of “…an unseen Christ.” She showed me a stack of notebooks filled with hand written accounts of her religious experiences interspersed with biblical quotations and difficult to follow discussions of what she called the Christian ideals underlying the Civil War. She read parts of it to us. One of her memorable stories was about being invited to a Children’s Crusade that had begun in Georgia, led by a great grandson of Stonewall Jackson. “We were trying to find the Lord to see if He would part the waters and open up an escape route from General Sherman’s march to the sea.” From a relatively poor family of Southern Baptists in rural Louisiana, she had lived in a state psychiatric hospital for almost three years. Her diagnoses ranged from borderline schizophrenia to temporal lobe epilepsy. The collateral interviews with her mother from several years before had been placed in the hospital chart. They recounted that in the patient’s middle to late teens she had become suddenly promiscuous, frequently approaching strange men in city parks. Obsessed with fellatio and swallowing sperm, she told her mother that she was receiving a holy sacrament. More recently, the increasing incidence of ecstatic episodes and compulsive note taking coincided with the complete loss of interest in sexuality in any form. Her talk was now full of moralizing detail about the shoulds and should nots of daily living. She referred to herself as a non-Catholic nun who was married 17 to Christ. The brain waves recorded from electrodes deep in her brain demonstrated transient episodes of spiking in a midline limbic structure called the septum and in the right hippocampus, deep in the temporal lobe. Paul MacLean and others since have shown that electrical stimulation of these and related brain regions could produce pleasure and grooming reactions in cats and prolonged penile erections in squirrel monkeys. Many years later, I spoke about Donna with the Harvard professor of neurology, Norman Geschwind. He took me to his twice a week epilepsy clinic. In an effort to demonstrate what is now known as the Geschwind Syndromes of between seizure, inter-ictal personality changes in patients with temporal lobe epilepsy, he stood in front of the patients’ waiting room. In a loud voice, he asked that all people keeping diaries and personal notebooks please stand up. Several did so, some displaying their notebooks in outstretched hands. The pages that I saw were filled mostly with religious writing, biblical quotations and exclamation points. Gathering the positive responders together, he asked them in turn what religion they were. Several answered the question with the question, “When?” It turned out that many reported having several experiences of religious conversion. Geschwind called them “Jamesian Episodes” after William James’ Varieties of Religious Experience. He then asked when was the last time they engaged in sexual activity. For most of them, including those that were married, it had been years. Thought the men said they were not impotent, experiencing early morning spontaneous erections, they claimed a complete loss of interest in sex though feeling warmly affectionate toward people generally. As he anticipated, the patients were emotionally intense and unstoppably loquacious, needing to speak at length about their moral philosophies. They persisted in following us around the clinic waiting room, several speaking at once. In his lectures and papers, Geschwind called this last feature, difficulty in separation, interpersonal “stickiness.” First reported by the French electroencephalographer, Henri Gastaut, a history of multiple ecstatic religious experiences, increasing emotional intensity and lability, hyposexualilty (not impotence), moralizing religiosity, compulsive and frequently poetic writing and tendency to cling to people is now called the Geschwind Syndrome of temporal lobe 18
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